My never ending expedition.

I woke up this morning to snow falling and the garden looking like a winter wonderland. It is beautiful. I sat down and ate my breakfast while checking emails and the like. Next to me is a newspaper and my morning and evening reading of Spurgeon devotionals. The kettle is on to make a cup of coffee.  I do not want. I am blessed with so much, I am warm, I am fed, I have all the material things..and yet I fight to open my bible. I think of how my heart yerns to go where God wants me to go. I have everything here. But what if the next place I go I do not have the comforts which I am blessed with here? What if I do not have heating, or a bed? What if I do not have food for breakfast or for lunch...what then will sustain me? God and God alone. Here right now, it can be hard to get in the Word and seek after God because as I wake, until the time I sleep, I can have all my temporary comforts, that can furfill my temporary needs..but I know I am left unsatisfied and thirsty for the l...

    I want to fall more in love with Him.        You know when you fall for someone and then when you hear their voice you smile and during the day you wonder what they are up to, or you would love if they were sitting next to you, just sitting there with you, having tea with you. You just want to be around them, hear stories about them, watch them tell you about funny times in their life, seeing sadness pass by their face as they share with you things which hurt their heart..and your heart saddens with theirs...      I desire this so much with my love..I want to fall more and more in love with Jesus. I want to have tea with Him and hear His stories of His youth, and weep with Him as He tells of the saddness in His heart for the lost and how much He loves everyone but they do not want to know Him. I want to take walks with Him and collect shells with Him a...

Dear friends,                                                                                       Date: 18 November 2011                                                                            ...

So many things have happened, much drying of tears of both joy and sorrow, a few chocolate bars here and there, hugs, hugs and maybe even more hugs...and through it all the faithfulness, goodness and love of God our Father shines right through. For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. -Galatians5:1 This verse has been key for me ever since my realationship with Jesus became a reality almost a year and a half ago now and it continues to be a huge focus in my daily life. Freedom... we all desire this in some shape or form dont we! The word of God says in John8:32, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” Many of us read this and say that, “that is great if it works for you but it isnt for me”..so freedom isnt for you then? In reality people are afraid or unbelieving that this promise could be truth, but have you tried it? Have you really tested it? ...

“ It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy31:8 This verse was given to me by a dear friend a week ago. And last night in bible study we studyied through this chapter...I love how God prepares the way for us and goes before us. It is such a blessing to recieve a message from the Lord for comfort and reassurance. His work is beautiful and so flawless. This morning I said goodbye to my parents for a few months as I make my way back to Germany for my second semester at bible college. It is hard to leave my parents..but it is also such a blessing beacuse I see more and more how much I love them and what a pure and unconditional love they have for me. What beauty and blessings lie in the relationships we have. Though it saddens me to leave my two best friends at home,I look up and realise that their love is still so ever present with me, their comfort, their encouragemnent, t...

A good memory I certainly don't have but I can not forget where God has brought me from and to...    I've been back from Germany just over a week now...and to be honest it has been tough, not because I dont like it here in Cork, 110% not, I love it here. Here is home and I've always been in love with this city. Also I have a beautiful family here, well based here. My mum and dad are here and they are wonderful to me, so wonderful. The love they have shown my brother, sister and I has definetly given me and shown me a glimpse of how God must love all of us as His children. They love us so much and want to see us happy. My brother lives in London, I miss Him dearly. And my beautiful sister lives in Dublin..gee I love them so much. But no need to frown, we are all going to Glastonbury music festival together at the end of June! It is very exciting..all of us together..it will be wonderful and interesting cause we are all so alike in some ways but are oh so very different in ...

   Its been a while. And lots has happened. Ive spent the last three and a half months in Calvary Chapel Bible College, Siegen, Germany. To sum it up in a word... WOW.    What is bible college like you may ask?? Interesting thats forsure. I think, like when I became a Christian people may think its an easy life. That I can asure you is not the truth..and if your life is easy then I'd ask you to look again at what you have invested your life in. For the call to follow Christ is not one that will lead to an easy life but it is the most rewarding and the only worthy one. So on coming to bible college some had said to  me it is great fun and pretty easy, fun it is..forsure. Easy...hmmm again I'll say the call we are called to is not easy so I think here easy maybe the wrong word. I definetly did not find it easy... Enjoyable, yes, worthwhile, double yes, stretching, one hundred and ten times, yes, would I go again??? YES YES and YES but easy..no!    Dur...

Gee louise I'm frustrated.... I have soooo much...I do, I have more than I could ever ask for. But the one thing I want more than anything, the one thing that has more meaning than anything I keep from myself and its there for the taking. God wants me to have it too more than anyting. A soft heart. Its like I have this armed guard force in front of it...each standing for there own reasons, one holding a sign saying guilt, another holding selfishness, another greed and many more lining up next to each other in rows and rows...not one wanting to move a muscle. This frustrates me oh soooo much. Galatians5:1...He came to set us free... Oh how I yern to tare down those signs and rejoice and tell those guards that they now are free to hold signs of freedom, peace, love and joy. I am disgusted with the amount of stuff I have but instead of being disgusted I should be rejoicing and singing praise for our Lord is sooo good to me. I am not to be a slave to stuff. I am to be free of those ...