My never ending expedition.

God is gracious. Many times people said to me and Im sure it has been said to you too, that God has bigger and better plans than I could even think of for myself. And it is true. Gods grace in my life is so precious and I am so very thankful to Jesus for saying in the garden of gethsemane, "..nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will." For His sacrifice has paid it all. Growing up all I wanted to be was a teacher and to go to Africa and build an orphanage and teach there. Funnily enough that didnt really change much as time went by. When I finished secondary school here in Ireland I was 18 and had to decide whether to go back and tae my exams again in order to get what I needed to do teaching or to do something else. I was such a nervous wreck when it came to exams. so much fear in me that I would fail, no belief but fear and so over time thinking and many tears I decided to do something else. I can not tell you how hard it was to let go of teaching, inside of me ...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.    -Proverbs3:5&6 Thank you Lord for bible studies and talking with others about you. Last night at our weekly bible study here in Cork we were looking at Hebrews 12 and God, who as Our Father chastens us. It was very thought provoking and enjoyable to talk about God who is so big and beyond our understanding but so enjoyable to get to know. The author of Hebrews in Hebrews12:5&6 quotes Proverbs3:11&12 which says, " My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, Nor detest His correction; For whom the Lord loves He corrects, Just as a father the son in whom he delights. I know myself I can get overwhelmed with one aspect of God, even within that one aspect one characteristic, ie the disciplining father. God is so big and I am not able to grasp the extravigance of His mighty brilliance but what I l...

The last few days have felt rough. It felt like there was a weight upon me and my weary arms could not lift it. I never have to lift it though, I just need to lean on Him but for those days I wasnt sure if I knew how or if I was or wasnt doing it. It was a struggle to open the Word, it was like my hands couldnt even open it but praise God for recorded teaching, pray and His love which He shows me through my dear dear parents and friends. He softens my heart to a baked potato! Today I can say He restores my soul. (psalm23) We all have hard days, days when things seem soo big, like there will not be an end to all the little problems..and you know what there may not be in this life..but our hope does not have to be focused on whats around us. On Sunday at church we read Hebrews11 about Moses, his life and his faith, and in verse27 the Word says 'for he endured as seeing him who is invisible.' Where do we find our hope? Though I may despair, or grow weary, or not ha...

Since the last time I have wrote I have been to China, back again to Germany and now I am at home in Ireland once again. I have gone to write a number of times before this but so much has happened I have no idea where to start. What I can say for sure is how I have seen Gods mercy so much in my life and around the world and how He wants and will give the desires of our heart as we diligently seek Him. That is key: Diligence in seeking Him. Jesus said seek first the kingdom of God...this is His will for our lives. To seek Him and His ways, to love Him first, always. And all else will follow. Though it may seem that I follow Him, and live my life for Him and yes He is so gracious and brings me to many wonderful places and meet many awesome people I still fail at this command time and time again. Praise God for His grace <3 Seek Him first...so often I think if I have this, or if my life looked like that then all will be good and all will...

My psalm of the day says in its final verses: But I will sing of Your power; Yes, I will sing aloud of Your mercy in the morning; For you have been my defense and refuge in the day of my trouble. To You, O my Strength, I will sing praises; For God is my defense, My God of mercy.                                       -Psalm59:16-17 This morning this was a spring of fresh water to my thirst soul. Sometimes because of fear of people, upsetting people or not wanting to cause trouble or problems I slow down and alter myself to be..whatever is "better" or "easier" for whatever reason. Sometimes its out of my own laziness, other times its because I am being selfish, it can be out of fear of doing something wrong or saying somthing wrong and sometimes I just let what is aroun...

It will be two years this June, that I asked God to forgive me of my sins and wash me white as snow. I knew that I wanted to do this and mean it in my heart before this time, but I did not think I deserved His love and forgiveness and holding onto things of the world which I did not want to let go of...but as I looked for Him more and more as He called out to me and stretched forth His hand, at last I leaped into His hands. Since then, things have changed. Oh how I wish for those who do not believe or who have seen my life since, that I could give them a taste or an insight to life with Christ. I know it must be a little scary for those who love me or who know me at all to watch my life as it moves forward with Him. It is a different life. I watched the video of my baptism last night, it was in January of last year. It was such a great day in my life. Sometimes as things change around us and when we feel like things are out of our control, or we do not understand them, or maybe e...

The testing of our faith, the trials...to persever, to grow weary...finding our strength in Him. For the past four days I have been wrestling with my own heart. Battling with my flesh, pressing forward even though much of me just wants to stand still but I dont like to stand still, if there is one thing I dont like the most of all is not getting to know the Lord new each day and just giving into self-pity and this want to put a hault on time. Yes, life is ever changing and moves happen, new people come, others go! Yes, family are missed and friends too, and of course I dont have answers for people when I am asked where?... what?.. when? and Why?...but none of that is anything big when my vision is set on Christ. This morning I continued to read in Psalm, amidst Psalm44 there is a gem, in verse 8 it says:  In God we boast all day long, And praise Your name forever. No matter what is going on around us, or how we think we feel, we must be open for ...