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What stops us from being free



When I write or even when I meet up with people for coffee and a chat I like to do it after the storm has passed. I like to have things figured out a little before talking or writing about it, to feel more comfortable, to feel in control, to feel safe. But obviously I know that I am ultimately not in control at all. God is. But my insecurities and weaknesses are so vast and deep that I fear showing all sides of me. I am pretty open about life and things that I go through in general. I love to chat, discuss and learn from others. However the fear of not being good enough or of being rejected can cause me to scurry back into my shell, my cocoon, my shelter.
But God is calling me out. He call us deeper, calls us to live this journey, this life out in the open. To fall in public, to fall short, to mess up, to learn...and to start all over again and I am rest assured that He will be there all the way. Picking me up, cheering me on and always, always leading the way.
So I am going to try to show the journey in all its forms, messy, imperfect but full of grace.

Fear of not being good enough, or the fear of being perceived a certain way has to stop. I may not get it right often and you may not like some parts of me but if you follow along this journey, my hope is that you may see more of Him and less of me.
Here's to the journey and all the lessons learned along the way.

Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God, 
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles; 
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint. 
-Isaiah40:28-31

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