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For me, as a Christian sometimes I doubt...I think what if I have got it wrong??..Could I really know the truth and so many not want it?


This week in college it is 'Islam awareness week' and watching people filter in and out of the room that  they are set up in reminded me that there are so many religions out there. I asked God today what if I got it wrong?...What if what I believe and what I do isnt true to Him or the truth? I asked Him to reach me today and show me Him and His truth. And though my prayer was weak and quiet, He heard.


As I went about the rest of my day God was placing in front of me reminders of where He has brought me from and to. As I cycled home from college, as I sat reading my favorite blogs, as I drew on my blackboard wall...He showed me through my simple life what He has done for me and the life He has given to me. All because of Christ love, death and ressurection for a girl who did not yet know Him.

I do not wish to tell you about my religion. I do not have one. I have seen the grace and mercy of God in my life and long to know Him more and more.

All I long to do is point you to my King. My Saviour and my Friend. And tell you that I do not understand it all and yes I am human and doubt but God knows all this and meets us where we are at. God is living. God is active and God is real. I doubt. He knows it all. I fear. He is always in control. I love because He first loved me.

Though at times I may doubt, God listens to prayer and I am so thankful today for the reminder of the love He has for us. That He, a King would die for us. And gives us life and sets us free.

All I wish to do...is to point you to my King. Though I am no perfect example, I can point you to One who is and He loves you very much.



Sleep well dear friends <3  You are very loved, by Him.





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