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Where am I now? And what am I doing??

God is gracious.

Many times people said to me and Im sure it has been said to you too, that God has bigger and better plans than I could even think of for myself. And it is true.

Gods grace in my life is so precious and I am so very thankful to Jesus for saying in the garden of gethsemane, "..nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will." For His sacrifice has paid it all.

Growing up all I wanted to be was a teacher and to go to Africa and build an orphanage and teach there. Funnily enough that didnt really change much as time went by.

When I finished secondary school here in Ireland I was 18 and had to decide whether to go back and tae my exams again in order to get what I needed to do teaching or to do something else. I was such a nervous wreck when it came to exams. so much fear in me that I would fail, no belief but fear and so over time thinking and many tears I decided to do something else.
I can not tell you how hard it was to let go of teaching, inside of me I knew with all my heart this is what I was to do but I had no belief in my ability and took the safe root but always and still always all I long to do is teach. I would teach anything, anything at all.

Time passed but this longing wasnt far from my heart ever.

I have as you may know been attending bible college in Germany for the last year and a half. When I called out to the Lord over three years ago now in a very low time, He was there and He helped and since then I have wanted to and decided to follow Him and to learn more about our God who cares even though we may not care about Him.

And so He took me on a journey to Germany. What a joy and a blessing this time was. Getting to learn of Him, read His word, meet so many beautiful people and see so many precious places.

During this time I continued to give God my desire to teach. It still was my hearts desire but I was not sure if this still was Gods will for me or had I let that opportunity pass and He was going to carve a different path for me now...but alas, our God is FULL of grace, love, care and goodness. And His will and timing is always the best.

Over the last two years He has formed me, changed me and grown me, I am in love with Him by His grace.

He faithfully showed Revelations3:7-8 my first semester in bible college.
Jesus is giving a message to the church in Philadelphia and He says,
"These things says He who is holy, He who is true, "He who has the key of David, He who opens and no one shuts, and shuts and no one opens." "I know your works. See, I have set before you an open door, and no one can shut it, for you have a little strength, have ept My word, and have not denied My name."
I knew He would open the door for me to teach, I just had to wait for His timing, His way, His path and this year while in Asia, He showed me His grace was enough and He wills me to go bac to study to have my dream come true. His grace is enough.

Days after returning to Ireland I recieved an offer to go back to college and study, I could not believe my eyes. This was an offer to study in Galway, I felt I was to deffer this for a year and so I did. This I believed was His timing. Alas...He had something better up His sleeve.

Last week, a total surprise to me, I got an offer in the post to study here in my home city, Cork in UCC, this will be a three year degree course and God continuing to lead onto teaching. There are no words which could describe my surprise and awe of what God has done for me. So much more to tell of the wonderful way in which God laid this out. His ways are so much higher than the heavens andHe wills to show us this but to get to see you must choose Him as He wants you.

And so within a day He leads my path once again in a beautiful surprising way, not my way but His not my will but His and how wonderfully perfect His way is.

So now I do not return to all those beautiful people in Germany but stay here in lovely Cork with those I love here. I will of course greatly miss those in Germany. This way was not my way. But I would be no where else but in His will, wherever that takes me.

That is me, where I am now and what I am doing :)

May God bless your day greatly, and always, what ever that may look like can be different every day.

Look up. Dream and trust.

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  1. That is so great emer! You will be a wonderful teacher x

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