My never ending expedition.

I am so undeserving. And yet I harden my heart. Right at this moment I feel my heart is ready to break. All of today I have felt my heart has been hardened towards my God who has done and still does soo much for me every minute of every day. This is an awful feeling. Its like I have forgotten how to breath. That I have stopped. A very important part of these sentences is the I ..why you might ask..because I am the one changing my heart towards Him. He, my saviour never changes...he always is. Moses asked what shall I tell them when they ask your name and the Lord said tell them I am. For he is. I am the one who changes...my heart towards him changes, my mood changes, my status update changes..I change. And you know what I also means, I means I am without him for otherwise it would be we. I without him is nothing, I am nothing without him. Oh how I need my Lord and my saviour. Oh how I feel so much like nothing without him. I feel lost without him, lonely without him..I feel li...