My never ending expedition.

“ It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy31:8 This verse was given to me by a dear friend a week ago. And last night in bible study we studyied through this chapter...I love how God prepares the way for us and goes before us. It is such a blessing to recieve a message from the Lord for comfort and reassurance. His work is beautiful and so flawless. This morning I said goodbye to my parents for a few months as I make my way back to Germany for my second semester at bible college. It is hard to leave my parents..but it is also such a blessing beacuse I see more and more how much I love them and what a pure and unconditional love they have for me. What beauty and blessings lie in the relationships we have. Though it saddens me to leave my two best friends at home,I look up and realise that their love is still so ever present with me, their comfort, their encouragemnent, t...

A good memory I certainly don't have but I can not forget where God has brought me from and to...    I've been back from Germany just over a week now...and to be honest it has been tough, not because I dont like it here in Cork, 110% not, I love it here. Here is home and I've always been in love with this city. Also I have a beautiful family here, well based here. My mum and dad are here and they are wonderful to me, so wonderful. The love they have shown my brother, sister and I has definetly given me and shown me a glimpse of how God must love all of us as His children. They love us so much and want to see us happy. My brother lives in London, I miss Him dearly. And my beautiful sister lives in Dublin..gee I love them so much. But no need to frown, we are all going to Glastonbury music festival together at the end of June! It is very exciting..all of us together..it will be wonderful and interesting cause we are all so alike in some ways but are oh so very different in ...

   Its been a while. And lots has happened. Ive spent the last three and a half months in Calvary Chapel Bible College, Siegen, Germany. To sum it up in a word... WOW.    What is bible college like you may ask?? Interesting thats forsure. I think, like when I became a Christian people may think its an easy life. That I can asure you is not the truth..and if your life is easy then I'd ask you to look again at what you have invested your life in. For the call to follow Christ is not one that will lead to an easy life but it is the most rewarding and the only worthy one. So on coming to bible college some had said to  me it is great fun and pretty easy, fun it is..forsure. Easy...hmmm again I'll say the call we are called to is not easy so I think here easy maybe the wrong word. I definetly did not find it easy... Enjoyable, yes, worthwhile, double yes, stretching, one hundred and ten times, yes, would I go again??? YES YES and YES but easy..no!    Dur...

Gee louise I'm frustrated.... I have soooo much...I do, I have more than I could ever ask for. But the one thing I want more than anything, the one thing that has more meaning than anything I keep from myself and its there for the taking. God wants me to have it too more than anyting. A soft heart. Its like I have this armed guard force in front of it...each standing for there own reasons, one holding a sign saying guilt, another holding selfishness, another greed and many more lining up next to each other in rows and rows...not one wanting to move a muscle. This frustrates me oh soooo much. Galatians5:1...He came to set us free... Oh how I yern to tare down those signs and rejoice and tell those guards that they now are free to hold signs of freedom, peace, love and joy. I am disgusted with the amount of stuff I have but instead of being disgusted I should be rejoicing and singing praise for our Lord is sooo good to me. I am not to be a slave to stuff. I am to be free of those ...

I am so undeserving. And yet I harden my heart. Right at this moment I feel my heart is ready to break. All of today I have felt my heart has been hardened towards my God who has done and still does soo much for me every minute of every day. This is an awful feeling. Its like I have forgotten how to breath. That I have stopped. A very important part of these sentences is the I ..why you might ask..because I am the one changing my heart towards Him. He, my saviour never changes...he always is. Moses asked what shall I tell them when they ask your name and the Lord said tell them I am. For he is. I am the one who changes...my heart towards him changes, my mood changes, my status update changes..I change. And you know what I also means, I means I am without him for otherwise it would be we. I without him is nothing, I am nothing without him. Oh how I need my Lord and my saviour. Oh how I feel so much like nothing without him. I feel lost without him, lonely without him..I feel li...

Have you ever noticed things happening in your day or events happening in your life when you say to yourself..that was just weird, not normal or no one could have forseen it..like incidents were planned to happen, ment to happen but there was no way you or anyone else could have seen it coming...or even planned it for that matter! Its weird when that happens isnt it. For me its been happening a lot lately, but I really do think it was always happening in my life and also in your life but we just dont see it, or if we do we write it off as being some odd coincidence. During this summer I've been longing to study the bible more and more..ok so that doesnt sound like everyones cup of tea but it is mine-its like a big mug of barrys tea to me! Friends of mine have and are studying in a bible college in Siegen, Germany (Calvary Bible college). The more and more I heard about the bible college and studying the word, the more I grew excited about having the opportunity to study and tau...