When I write or even when I meet up with people for coffee and a chat I like to do it after the storm has passed. I like to have things figured out a little before talking or writing about it, to feel more comfortable, to feel in control, to feel safe. But obviously I know that I am ultimately not in control at all. God is. But my insecurities and weaknesses are so vast and deep that I fear showing all sides of me. I am pretty open about life and things that I go through in general. I love to chat, discuss and learn from others. However the fear of not being good enough or of being rejected can cause me to scurry back into my shell, my cocoon, my shelter. But God is calling me out. He call us deeper, calls us to live this journey, this life out in the open. To fall in public, to fall short, to mess up, to learn...and to start all over again and I am rest assured that He will be there all the way. Picking me up, cheering me on and always, always leading the way. So I am going to try
Life for me is safest lived day by day and step by step. I cant really do more than that. Naturally I stress really easily, I over think often, I dispair far to much. So day by day and step by step is the best medicine for me! The most wonderful thing is..thats how God leads us to live, day by day and step by step. I am very thankful for the year that has passed. Its another year of life lived, people I have had the pleasure to know and places I have been but most of all I am thankful for Gods grace in my life and in those lives around me. Life can be tough...but one thing remains the same ...this year, last year and the one to come...and that is Him . Thank you Jesus . I know at Christmas we are to celebrate Christ birth...but the New Year for me brings more celebration of Christ and His life than Christmas does. The New Year to me represents a new year to live in the grace that Christ has given..at a huge price for Him but which comes so freely for those who come to H